After much too long of a hiatus, I am back.
This last year ended up being a bit of a lost year as far as many things go. Life didn’t exactly go as planned in some ways and I got a bit down; good ol poor me attitude in many ways. It wasn’t all bad as I have found a good bit more peace in my life, but I was letting life happen more than fully participating. Showing up and going through the motions is better than not showing up at all, but it isn’t the way I am.
Here are a couple facts that I have finally owned up to:
- I am overweight by way too much.
- I am not actively deciding where I want to go and doing something about it.
- While I am participating with my family, I can do better.
Yesterday, a few things happened that accumulated into what I needed to get me going again – a kick in the pants so to speak.
- I saw that the Boulder Valmont bike park was selected for the 2014 Cyclocross Nationals and realized that I had absolutely no chance to race it in my current shape. They don’t even offer races for the bottom categories I have been racing in and there is absolutely no way I could even qualify currently for an upper category.
- An acquaintance that I hadn’t talked to for a while mentioned during a conversation of “how’s life going” that the fire he used to see in me wasn’t fully there and I wasn’t carrying myself as powerfully as I used to.
- In the past week several people have mentioned how they got inspiration from my exercise and determination that I used to do.
- I started reading a friend’s blog at http://www.rectifyyourhealth.com/blog/ and a few things struck a chord.
- In the past month, I’ve known of 3 people that have lost a loved one to Cancer, one to heart failure, and another has a relative currently battling massive heart issues.
- It’s been nearly a year since my mom died and as I was lamenting about how out of shape I was to myself, my thoughts drifted to her and I’m pretty dang sure she smacked me a bit. I wasn’t raised to be one to self pity, I was raised to take the bull by the horns if needed. Somewhat of a “its been a year, now pull up the big boy pants and get back to life!”
So what am I going to do?
I’m honestly, still figuring it out a bit and will update that as I figure it out.
I do know three things:
- I’m going to post up my weight and %fat at least monthly, yep somewhat turning this into a fat blog.
- I will be a competitive cat 3 cyclocross racer by Jan 2014.
- I’m not going to race just to race.
I’ve been giving lip service to dropping the fat that I have gained over the past 7 years for years now and have gotten down to 202lbs once, but keep going back up to 220+ with two spikes now into the high 230lbs. I have put in quite a bit of exercise, even did a half iron distance duathlon in that time range; however it seems like I was always in the pre-race training mode where I wanted to be on top of my performance capability. Being ready to race, meant that I wasn’t dropping the fat that I really need to drop as I didn’t want to be in the negative calorie wise and not be fully recovered for the next days efforts. And in all reality, I was still training too hard too often and not actually going slow when I should have been. I do still want to get in a half marathon if possible, the Bolder Boulder maybe, and hopefully one or two duathlons, but I have to be ok with possibly not beating my times for last year. If I’m not ok with it, then I’ll not enter as I need to get the fat off and stop making excuses.
Weight really is only one part of the equation as I do have a large bone structure and I do have some decent muscle mass; however I really see no reason I should be over 200lbs unless I really want to build back all the muscle I’ve lost since I was pretty serious into weight lifting. Having 36″ thighs, 52″ chest, and 23″ upper arms really didn’t offer much other than making it impossible to find clothes. I do want to get a little bit back, but I was much better built in College than I am now and I was down at 175lbs then; granted that was 6-8% body fat. For now I’m going to shoot for the 188lb range in two years with the body fat percentage being the much more important part. That I would like to get in the 12% range or lower as I think that I can maintain that.
For the blog posts over the past year – I may back fill some as I have quite a few posts from the last year mostly done, I just never got to finishing them and hitting post. One thing I will do is post regularly, if nothing else than to hold myself accountable. My weight 3 weeks ago was 227, not sure about the body fat.
Now for the cheesy quote that holds much truth
“time to get busy living, or get busy dying” – I know which choice I’m making.